My BRCA Journey

I have joked for years that this was all to get new perky boobs. Never did I want implants. I just didn’t know how to handle it all, so I said I get free tits out of it. Truth is they cost $5 in copay and probably $25 in post-op meds..

I am faced with people questioning me lately. I was asked why I didn’t just get implants if I wanted bigger boobs. I do not want not need bigger boobs. I was fine with what I had. Those were a ticking time bomb (insert Iration’s song “Time Bomb” here haha). I could have very well NOT had a reduction and went without a nipple-sparing mastectomy but I wanted some sort of control in my life.

I know the risks I am facing. I watched my dad absolutely battle cancer. He didn’t live to meet my daughter, wasn’t here for my promotions, or see me reconnect with some of his favorite people, but he is no longer suffering. He didn’t “beat” cancer but he won at life and showed me what strength is. My dad showed me such passion for life. He had the most contagious personality – he was always so happy and grateful.

I can still get cancer. It is possible there will be treatment, but reality is treatment might not work.

So yes, I am getting these breast tissue expanders taken out and will momentarily be flat until my implants and placed. I am not sure how I will mentally handle it.

Now I am spending my evenings looking up bras for post-op since I need to be dressed up on the 28th and then head out of town the 29th..